Old Pals were in Putrajaya

Long lost buddy, that Ive met in FB finally really made it to Putrajaya. It was like a year last that I found Betty in FB and she married Mohd Sehat an old buddy too. Ive posted an article about them upon getting contact with Betty Like Ive mentioned in my postings "Long Lost Sister" their marriage was a big and pleasant surprise for me.

It was quite timely as I was free resting at home in Putrajaya when Mohd Sehat called as they were within the vicinity. A warm hug from Mohd Sehat and some hyes and hellos from Betty we were set for some drinks and food at the Community Center. My daughter Hani came along as we had planned to go out together when Mohd Sehat called.

Had lunch at the Community Center Presint 11, Both of them doesn't look any much different that I used to remember. Mohd Sehat looks real good, and Betty as she always was cool..... full of excitement and energy.

Catching up on lost time from old pals is always great, though we have lost touch and not met for so long the ambiance was just like the old good times, and the jokes were always teething. haha. and fun too. We had another chance to create more lovely memories and today was one of the good ones. Cheers to both of you Mohd Sehat and Betty. I had a good time with both of you.

Never by : Joe Ismyl

The Perfect Gift.

MJ's in my soul. Everything seems to be together to strengthen the bond, her thoughts, her mind, her likes and dislikes , aspirations, her concerns and love. Infact I think I also have some of her rashes or is it Dad's? Now it was about the perfect gift for two of my lovely angels. My daughter Liyana and my daughter in law Syieda. It so happens their birthdays falls one day apart from each other and so everyone seems to want to have some sort of celebration, and a surprise. This was also due to that Syieda being her first birthday to be celebrating with us after her marriage to Fakhri. Liyana always loves birthdays and presents since she was a child and everyone knows that.

You know how Daddy is always the one the least interested to think about having to choose the perfect birthday gift. This time around, Daddy is determined to change. All because of MJ, the iron lady herself. MJ use to say " its not like everyday the occasions of birthdays, and that it is not expensive gifts that are important during birthdays or other special occasions but the thoughts of it. She is right Daddy thought and it may not be an expensive one, but there must always be a present during those special occasions like birthdays. What would it be if MJ were to choose for a perfect birthday gift?

I remembered asking MJ for my wedding lets go to the goldsmith and get a gold ring for the dowry. I wanted to make the ring to be given for the wedding dowry (emas kahwin) including some other presents, however MJ had a different idea. She slip a pendant into my hands and says, "This is my present to you for this joyous occasion" you buy a necklace to make it the gift". Perfect I thought and so for my wedding, the dowry it was the pendant and the gold necklace. I was so touched by MJ's gestures of love through the gift of the gold pendant, I told MJ, this is just too much for me. and she says "it is not mine it is all Allah's, just take it" and so to make a gift the perfect gift MJ's Pendant it was with the necklace.I shed some tears because I find true sincerity in her.

So what would be the perfect gift for the birtday girls? You guess right, a pendant it was for two of my lovely angels. Syieda and Liyana. Thank you MJ, and like I always say you are my inspiration and you never fail to ease my mind and provide me with the comfort and confidence to go forward in my life and to make things happen for me with my own life and my family. I love you again and again MJ. Thank you and thank you again. You will always be in my heart. Though you did not mention it I know that you are happy too, had you been here with me to celebrate this special occasion.

To Liyana and Syieda, I want both of you to know how much we all love you and so does MJ had she been here, she would have loved to hand it herself to you a special gift like the pendant. MJ lives in isolation and she obviously cant be here and you know it too. Just give prayers and may Allah give her strength to go forward with her life in confidence and to smile always in the journey within the oceans of heaven towards the unknown destiny.

For both of you, I wish you happiness always and may you both receive Rahmah from Allahsubhanahuwataalaa always.... Like I always say, occasion like this is a lovely memory that we shared and the happiness that comes with it is temporary and will become history until we reach our destiny. Love and Think of Allah always and you will be there. Insyallah.

Love you always

Never by : Joe Ismyl

Between Your Hands

I travel in the oceans of your eyes without knowing my destination. You held our hearts in between your hands and I asked you Ya Allah, do not leave this heart, What would it be without you. This heart will not reach the inevitable the impossible, the envision destiny. If you leave it empty without you in it.

At the moment of my lowest and you at the highest, take my heart, hold it close to yours, take it a little more and more closer for this heart will not withstand the might and the shower of your gifts. Bring this heart to a safe destination and soothe it from harm.

You that have created the miracle in me and all the miracles in our hearts please create just this one more miracle so that this heart shall stay a safe space in within you always so we would walk the isles of your love towards heaven.


Never by : Joe Ismyl

Here I am

Dear MJ

Here I am sitting infront of the house in Putrajaya, a rest area besides the car porch. The sitting area over looks the view of the area where I live, and you could see the blue sky, the neighbors house and ofcourse what ever comes with it. While running my thoughts and emailing everywhere as usual, the thoughts of you taunted my mind again. You know I love you MJ, and you used to tell me that you have never forgotten to 'doa' for all your children everyday. You want all of them to be successful people. Now you can rest assured that they are all on their own and successful in their own rights. Son or daughter it does not matter for you, you love them the same. even your inlaws. Good to have both. Your daughter can also help you with the cooking, or to cut your hair. You need them too...... Always remembered your advice, to work hard and that I must be strong. You said you always pray for the best for me, everyday. You gave me the prayer Mat and tasbih. Sorry that I did not bring the tasbih everywhere I go, but I still have you in my mind all the time. Your advice to make sure to Solat everyday, and do the Dhuha prayers, all of which advices, I am also giving those advices now to my children. I followed all your advices MJ, recite the Yassin and read the Quran every eve of Friday, and do the "Solat Hadjat"and recite all those beautiful verses. Now that my children almost all of them having their own life to follow on, I felt the same you did when you expressed your love through your advices and reminders. I do the same. The advices and thoughts about going for pilgrimage in Mecca for the Umrah or better still the Haj. Just save and spend you said, as it is worth the money. The returns from Allah is tremendous, double, or quadruple you said . How I wished I could go again to Mecca, with you if only you could. Insyallah with Allahs blessing you would see me going to Mecca.

I was following you everywhere before this from the others but since I know you were safe and back to normal, I started bringing you in my thoughts everywhere, in everything that I do always. This is how pure love is from person to person, the feelings right now, sincere and honest. I know MJ, though I have never realised I had these feelings, as I was complacent with things and selfish with my own life, I did not care until I realised how fragile you had become and hurt with everything that had happened with your family, losing your husband and afterwards on your own with all your energy, bringing love to all your children so that they are together.

I was hurt too MJ, only Allah knows. I have done everything that I could, just like you, giving all that I hve got, but maybe I was not as good as you. I cant bring my big family together and to foster good relations amongst my brother and sisters. I have given time and energy to ensure that what you had wanted becomes a reality and sacrifice my focus on my own carrier and family for your idealistic aspiration. My only wish and hope is that I have done everything possible as now I am on my own doing my own things without having to think too much about them anymore as they do not need them anymore from me. Ofcourse I think about you all the time.

I know MJ, like you said, Allah Subhanahuwaataalaa spared this feelings about love to you and always teaching me how to love him. It is his gesture that I felt this love as a gift from Allah The love we felt is a gesture from Allahsubhanahuwataala in teaching us how to bring Allah closer to us. Just remember Allah is closer than the beat of our hearts!! Syukur Alhamdulillah..... Allah spared us more knowledge with the experience of love so we could experience and visualize the ultimate!

Never by: Joe Ismyl

A Tic More Love

My Dearest MJ

It has been so long since last I had made a posting. The reason is simple, I have lost the inspiration and idea. I have kept my thoughts hybernated. Of course I was also very much involved with my business venture that I do not find much time to pen my thoughts. I needed something, a figure that I thought could give me the life or the power to keep on writing.

Who is the person that really inspire me to write and I have sort of let it passed on without realizing that the true inspiration to write actually comes from a true Iron Lady, the true person that I could give credit to all my writings. The person virtually was the closest with me all my life, however this lost soul does not seem to come close to inspire as I did not find her in my soul only until now. Shame on Joe.

Mama Joe, yes she is that person, the person that has always given me everything with full of commitment and sincerity without asking back in return. Exactly the person that I should think of every time I need to write. Why have I not found her before? Boggling about the need to spiritually portray a figure whom I could write to, a person who inspires, who motivates, honest and provide the true love that I needed to energise my life, my mind , my thoughts and my soul. I had thought of so many other figure person, when infact she was right infront of me and all through my growing life. She is the person that really was there and gave me the sincere support, the understanding and true love, I would address her as 'Mama Joe' or................. even better MJ. MJ comes to life in my soul so suddenly. Love you MJ.

MJ comes in my deepest thoughts and spiritually on listening to the song "Sedetik Lebih" the song by Annuar Zain. What lovely lyrics and melody. The song brought to life MJ the person that I have always had in my vision the person that have given everything all her life and have not taken anything back. My Iron Lady, MJ strong full of energy, soul and spirits. I would give tribute all my writings to MJ. Not Michael Jackson ya, Mama Joe, MJ.

She had gone through lots of experiences in her life and now needing love back from me, though she never ask. My appology to all my other sibblings, as I am taking MJ all for myself here so I will not talk about you guys coz she is mine and not yours. I think I love her more than you all. Sorry again. If I told you that she cried after so long that we were apart, you would not have believed me after all. She did too. What a lovely smile she has and always giving me that smile every time she saw me. I would hold her hands and tell her that I love you MJ. I would rub her hands and hold her fingers wrap it in between mine. Asked her what she wanted from me, and she would just say, she did not want anything, only my loving touches. "Sedetik Lebih", or just a "Tic More" of My love. I would rub her back and she would surely pull down my hands to rub her face so that I could shower her more with my loving touches. She felt hopeless before that and her spirits were seen alive and fully charged and motivated, immediately on seeing me. She does not lie a smile like lots others. Some people might give her lots of money or a fortune, or buy her things, or presents and anything that you could think of to please her, but that was not what she wants, she only wanted my love and attention. Some others want it all from her, diamond rings, gold neck-less to her house, her bank account and everything while I don't want anything from her, just her true love honestly and sincerely, her health, her life, her soul. She does not care about all those my dear, she only wants the end to be beautiful and shared with the one she loves most. Just remembered, I have always treasured the prayer Mat that she had given me and it was a message that even though it was a present, it meant to say that how much love we shared with people even MJ or your other love ones, the ultimate love is always Allah Subhanahu Watalla. YaAllahu Ya Rahman, YaAllahu Ya Rahim, YaAllahu Ya Razak, YAllahu Ya Karim.

Remember growing up as a kid and in my schooling days, you know how kids are they went to school then, always naughty and playing, and I was one of them, never thinking of MJ. Though MJ was busy with all her other stuff, as she is a driver herself with lots of energy and going through her life building her family and giving all she has got for her husband and children, giving the world what she has. I had forgotten to realize that I should have given all my life and love to her when she was younger and not at her age now. Its never too late. I am determined as my love has no bearing, but true and honest, My love is sincere and I do not give to take. After all she only wants to be at peace do not want anything but a shower of love until she return back to AllahSubhanahu Waataalla......

Virtual dream with regards the mecca trip that I had done with MJ, just the two of us, and we together in prayers to seek refuge from Allah...... You take care now MJ, just a Tic more... that was the best memory of my life. Anyone can create virtual dreams that becomes reality. It was and is real.

Never by : Joe Ismyl

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Miss You Mom

Dear Mom

I know you must wonder, why it has been so long since last I had visited you. Though we don't see much of each other, I want you to know that my thoughts runs deep always thinking about you. I love you Mom and will always will.

It has been tough, my life bringing up my family of six. I am proud to have a lovely wife to share my ups and downs going through life destined for us. I am also proud to have been bestowed with lovely children now grown ups, though we still have to fend for their needs right through their Degrees and also the youngest almost 16 years old. However difficult our life is, we have learned to strive with patience and always going forward for whatever comes. I envied you my dear Mom, for however tough my life is, I know you must have gone through worst bringing up your own, including me to be what we all are right now, all the 10 of us. You kept your cool always coz you are one tough lady.

I am going through another change in my life right this very moment. I have quit being dependent on people so long ago. and I have learned a lot through my experiences as an officer in a small to a huge company. I was on my own without a Job, for a year. I have also learned on my own making a living out of new avenues, new environment and changes that you can't imagine.

I have now taken another bold step and again, by taking up new challenges, though I am sharing with others, all professionals in their own field and experiences. Each of us playing our own roles and together we are hoping to strike good fortune in the next three years. So you will actually see me working extra hard with my other partners to make our plan work Insyaallah with the blessings of Allah, we will all make it good.

I get news about you Mom, almost every other day, from my brother and sisters, those close by to you. I know with them you are in good hands and well taken cared. How can I ever repay all your sacrifices bringing me up. I remembered those times when I was a kid, you were always there for me. I still remembered how you had cared for me and especially when I got sick, making sure I get the most attention, feeding me, and made me go to sleep. I remembered you carrying me walking very far to the bus stand to catch the bus to the hospital. You cared for me till I get to sleep and watched me while I sleep, to check on my fever. How you help me to the toilet in the middle of the night. I guess you must have lost lots of your own sleep too, just for me, just to make sure that I was always alright. Still you were up early, to make sure that breakfast was ready for all the others, for Dad, and my other brothers and sisters.

The time when we were together in Mecca for the Umrah was the best time of my life. We did everything together. How lovely it was to push you on the the wheel chair to complete the rituals. It was all worth the trip. I had you all for my self and it was such a wonderful feeling. We were together right in front of the Kaaba seeking Allah's blessings, praying together. I love you Mom.

How I wish to always be there with you, but I have to do what I have to do, I have to go forward and get going. This is my time to make sure I give the best for my own family, my wife and my children. they also need me right? You still have the others close to you, the trusted ones to shower you with true love that you deserve for all your sacrifices for all of us and I am sure they are giving as much love and attention as they possibly can.

Sure I will be back to see you Mom, and hopefully soon....... Miss you...


Never by : Joe Ismyl

Happy Birthday from the Universe!

It has been so long since last that I have written anything in my blog. I have been keeping really busy with schedules of my own business venture.

Its my birthday today and I have broken the 53 years. The record last year made was 52. Haha. Another year and another look into what I have achieved the past year. What and how much have I given for the good of my family, my friends, my country and the world. Nothing... still nothing....much. What happen the past year. Hard work and keeping my dreams and reaching forward.


Well, I have made my way into the Green technology world, and why not, it is the talk of the century. I think Green Technology is the best thing right now, be a part of it rather than letting the world disappear with the gas emission into the atmosphere, including carbon dioxide. You cant get away from headlines about global warming. It really is happening and where I am, Malaysia, the temperature keeps rising as I remembered throughout my life and now into my 53rd birthday. The Tsunami devastation and floods in Asia and volcanoes erupting elsewhere. Global warming is triggered mostly by greenhouse gases into the atmosphere.

To tackle the impending disaster, the UK Government signed the Kyoto Treaty 1997, which came into force in February 2005. Under this agreement, 164 countries have committed to reduce their greenhouse gas emissions, with the UK pledging a reduction of 12.5% from 2008 to 2012.

The Copenhagen climate summit was undone by arrogance of the rich and powerful nations. Having failed to agree a treaty to supplement the Kyoto Protocol, and having failed to set a timetable for agreeing such a treaty, opinions are inevitably split on how countries seeking stronger curbs on greenhouse gas emissions should move forward. The economist told BBC News that the US and EU nations had not understood well enough the concerns of poorer nations.

What better investment would be other than those that relates to the reduction of the gas and carbon dioxide in the Green Technology sector. Well this is real and a Japanese scientist have indicated that if nothing was done now, there will be a huge catastrophe much bigger that the Tsunami..

I hope by going into the mainstream of Carbon Capture technology and reducing of whatever we can of the carbon gas. we will be able to play our part in contributing to a green nation, a green world. We do have a way to solve the problem.

My Hybrid, Hydrogen on Demand, Cleanhydro and Carbon Capture anyone?

Need to go Forward

Have been idle for quite some time. Lots of changes have taken place in my life the last 2 years. First and foremost our shift from Johor Bahru to Selangor. What is it that really brought us to migrate to Selangor?

Till December 2008, It had been about six years for me earning a living through consultancy and services for the labor market in Johor Bahru. After a while, things had became too routine and the challenges weren't there. Its just my nature to be needing stimulation in my life and when things became idle I will start to think of changes and routes to take. The consultancy work that I had been doing are simple task which brings income but my ability was not tested. I had learned manpower trade from scratch and soon enough I have a steady pool of clients and know everything that I need to know about the business. The constant changes of the procedures made by the authorities has hampered the service industry for this sector.

My stint in a local Cranes company as the Head of Corporate Finance have come to a naught after about one and a half year since my skills and abilities were not tested to give a free hand in the process. Empowerment was not there to provide the right platform for positive changes to be made. Operational task is not my cup of tea and since the systems implementation and management engineering were not forthcoming, I had felt alienated within the system itself and it was time to move forward. When you can't lead to make changes, you follow,. When you follow without principals and improvements, you will become spiritually idle. Since you are spiritually idle and when you can't follow, you leave. So I left.

Some of my skills in the financial and business management had brought many involvements into analytical evaluation of business investments and through some financial consultancy work that I had secured, I had joined a new group to get myself involved in the execution of a fresh new project. This is stimulating and challenging and just fits me well enough. The positive evaluation and optimism with the business, I have made the sacrifice as a percentage stake holder in the business. The next three years will be proven the right business venture. Wish me luck.

Never by : Joe Ismyl